Eyesuck

I take back, taking back what i previously took back, I hate myself/feel terrible/have no worth in my eyes/ feel unworthy of Jehovah's love.

I can't get thoes words outa my head or make it stop hurting

Wow, ok so.....growing up and learning and maturing.....being young, it's like banging your head against a wall...it take me so long to learn anything and nothing is a simple as in was when I was younger......everything I think is one way....a week later is the oppoisie of what I think it is....Eerything is changing all the time..and confuzing.....and ...I don't understand......I don't understand and it's scary.....

I DON"T UNDERSTAND!

So, ok, I'm turning over a new leaf, I will forget my post from yesterday.
It's not failure, it's just...not getting it right.....yet.

But I can one day, and I will, because I can.
Jehovah doesn't let us be tested beyond what we bare, so...if he has faith that I can do it then, I can.


Otherwise, what I've learned recently is: The opinions of adults is not infallible, I shouldn't let them decide for me ,I have to learn to reason and weigh out the consequences of my actions for myself. I will not hang on every decree comming fro the mouths of well meaning adults, that is not to say that I know everythng, I just mean I won't odey blindly anymore.


Growing up is very, very, very hard, it hurt alot of the time, but others have survived it with more adversity and so can I.


Jehovah loves me.