All the short ppl i know are like vipers. Every single one of them.

Bella wouldn't behave like such a little monster some times if she had siblings.

Bella's laugh is weird, like she just inhaled hilium

Gross.........

The measure of friendship is not how ofthen we sin against each other but how completely we forgive thoes grievances.

I'm a big girl, i will not cry. I will pray for help to get through this week.

Aw.Paul's a sweety when he wants too be.

I want to go home.

Horribly depressed

I'm having a terrible day.

Having trouble breathing

Ah. Well I screwed that one up too. maybe it was for the better. Paul? U want to be next?

I wish I was Grayce, she never does anything wrong.

I hate myself so much.

:o par six in the wt is exactly perfect 4 me. Wow. Jehovah's amazing.

Why? cause he's 1000 miles away &so what if i'm bugging him?

Wow I wish I could be swallowed by Jehovah's memory right now.

Seen a picture of dan. He's really goodlooking. I can't talk2him anymore. 2sacred.&his BFF is a realllllly hot girl. Nope, noway jose. 2shy2talk2him nemore.

My friends freaking rot

SNOW! White blanket of bliss! Wonderful, glorious snow!

This is weird, I knoe but I know what song I want to lose my virginity too (on my honeymoon)?
I think the song 1901 by Pheonix is a pretty good choice.

Hmmm I feel like crying for no reason at all lol I hate that

Dear paul, be less of what I want. i don't want to want you

Dear retarded people i ride the bus with, It's friggin cold out here, put on a jacket.

I wish i was less like me

I have organinizing gatherings. I think i'm gonna be sick.

why does Sam feel so attention starved?

Incape you forgot that christmas was coming up, shoping will remind you

Why am i awake? My internal clock must be turning on me.

This is the part where i wish i could press rewind&undo

The 2nd floor of our house smelled like hickory smoked turkey. It was the highlight of my day

Bleh

Iwishiwasgone.i'dliketogiveupnow.sorryeveryone.itrynottotalkaboutthis.iknowit'sannoying.buti'mreallydepressed.

The worst part of going out on a limb isn't falling, it's wondering if u'll land on a pillow or on the rocks.

Dang......... my mind is racing now

To start.........IDK.

Hmmm it's so late it's almost early.
When's mom getting back?


Goodnight Wǎnān.

Walking on a dream

We are always running for the thrill of it, thrill of it.............*high-pitched words I can't decipher*


Watching my mome hobble/walk makes me feel rrrrrreeeeeeeeaaaaaaalllllly terrible.
I think I maybe failed my PSSAs.........yay......I'll get to be a senior for a year longer then everyone else...........................wooooooooooooooooooo.


Uhh.....what else?

mom wants me to go to bucks&I'd do it but she won't let me regular pioneer too....or if i do she won't let me use her car and I can't get my permit when I turn 18 cause I 'Haven't earned it" so I could go against theocratic direction, ignor the fact that I'm still under my parents roof and get someone else to take me to the DMV but if I do ,she won't help me buy a car or let me use her's.....

Sometimes I forget that my dad is head of the house....

is that tterrible?

I was gonna ask bro. Davey is depression was a sign of not enough faith or what ever...but I didn't cause that'd be obvious.

I wish Ron hadn't movd out....I feel like I have to face my family by myself now, which is a terrible thing to admit considering they are witnesse s too....



Oh, and I feel betrayed by my 3 closest friends, so eventhough I'm aware of my trust issues, I don't think I'm wrong to have them. Does that still count as denial?

eric...bleh,

I'm supposed to be doing Chinese hw now but grayce lifted my computer so I can't


I could write about what's happing in the lives of others around me...but this is my diary so I feel I can be completly selfsentered when I update if I feel like it.


Ok... ...hmmm this is making my head race agin.

bye.

Eyesuck

I take back, taking back what i previously took back, I hate myself/feel terrible/have no worth in my eyes/ feel unworthy of Jehovah's love.

I can't get thoes words outa my head or make it stop hurting

Wow, ok so.....growing up and learning and maturing.....being young, it's like banging your head against a wall...it take me so long to learn anything and nothing is a simple as in was when I was younger......everything I think is one way....a week later is the oppoisie of what I think it is....Eerything is changing all the time..and confuzing.....and ...I don't understand......I don't understand and it's scary.....

I DON"T UNDERSTAND!

So, ok, I'm turning over a new leaf, I will forget my post from yesterday.
It's not failure, it's just...not getting it right.....yet.

But I can one day, and I will, because I can.
Jehovah doesn't let us be tested beyond what we bare, so...if he has faith that I can do it then, I can.


Otherwise, what I've learned recently is: The opinions of adults is not infallible, I shouldn't let them decide for me ,I have to learn to reason and weigh out the consequences of my actions for myself. I will not hang on every decree comming fro the mouths of well meaning adults, that is not to say that I know everythng, I just mean I won't odey blindly anymore.


Growing up is very, very, very hard, it hurt alot of the time, but others have survived it with more adversity and so can I.


Jehovah loves me.

I'm considering suicide.

It's really hot outside, why do I have goose bumps?

I had a terrible day

Wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooow.

People are gullible.

I wish people would listen when I go to preach, just because they listen doesn't mean they have to become one of Jehovah's witnesses But if they just listen to the Bible it really does give people hope......

v.v




Also Alex is crazy & I can't in good conscience remain friends with her.




Gotta go pack for Florida YAY! Woo Florida......in July......how thrilling.......(I hate orlando -_-)

I'm gonna be single for.ev.er :(

Pioneer School is...

- a lot of hard work.

- trying not to fall asleep after lunch on turkey day.

- a lot of good food.

- making new friends.

- up building association.

- inspiring.

- staying up till 11:30 pm studying & rising at 6 to study some more & get ready.

- not wanting to go back out into the wrold at the end of the course.

- amazing

- worth it.

I knew it was bound to happen. 7 people. One bathroom. Somebodys not gonna be able to hold it one day......



Ugh.....

I hate twilight now&he i hear one more thing about it someon's getting punched in the head.

Why DOES love always feel like a battle field? Hmm?

Freaking rain...

I don't like myself and i wish i was someone else

Today was really depressing. I think maybe because i'm just tired Or something.

I feel better now ^.^

I wish Jehovah would take me away...but he must want me here i guess

I wish i was more like liz or bethany, not so much like me. I don't want to be me

I wri i never meet alex

Maybe it's his voice

Brother barber is a real gentleman. I enjoy him.

No one likes me.

No body really cares about anybody anymore. Me included

]You are my kind of beautiful[

Best Dressed Men - 2009 Beta Version

OR

How to look and behave like a gentleman.

By- Sylvia-

Adam Levine -Maroon 5 -Take notes boys. Great example of how you can look edgy, classic, and stylish in 2009. (And it doesn't hurt if you have a great singing voice)

Cary Grant - Actor - It's not just about how you dress, how you cary-pun intended- yourself and how you speak.

Gregory Peck - Actor - one of the things I love about before the late 60's is that people put effprt into how they dressed, the image to the left is a great example, check out his hair , the clean eyebrows and the pin stripes! & I'll bet he was just going out to pick up his laundry.

[No I'mage] Dan B?????ti - I met him once in NYC and he dresses s-h-a-r-p, another thing that is nessesary in being a gentleman is treat people with at least a little respect, no matter how irritating, insane, old or young (you think) they are. I'm not sure what his last name is....

[No Image] Eric F????ng - I can't spell his last name but he went to my hall 2007-2009 what can you learn from Eric? While you apply the above guidline, don't lie or lead people on because you think you are being nice because ultimatly; you are not.

[No Image] Paul - I don't know his last name but he always seems to dress with purpose and style even if he's just going to watch a movie. The lesson here being, when you dress like a sloppy jerk, people may assume that you don't respect or value their company. Last time I saw him he looked like Gregory Peck.

[No Image] Crapface Mcspazzitron [I really don't like this guy so I'm not posting his name] - Even when he look like crap he looks put together. Crapface treats me like a sister (read as: torments me), never wears suits, and his hair is far from neat. But yes there is a lesson here:Mixing obnoxious patterns and neon colors that should look revolting & making them look cool. His hair manages to always be well balanced on the fine line of 'Hopeless loser' and 'Effortless winner', I don't know how he does it but as soon as I find out I'll post it. He looks kind of like a young Elvis.

Hugh Jackman (See Also: Wolverione) - If you have that body, I won't complain if you want to take of your shirt every now and then, but seriously don't over do it it makes you seem shallow and it displays how aware you are of your own attractivness and you seem more like a arogant cad then a gentleman. Not cool. (He looks like Cary Grant though doesn't he?)

Johnny Depp - If you insist or dressing with like a homeless bum and calling it 'bohemian' then follow his example and try not to over do it, just a few of the homeless esentials at a time ok? The super worn jacket, very distressed pair of jeans, shoes that older then you, wife beater tank top and all of the jewlery you own, does not look good when you were them all at the same time, so try to keep it down to 2 at a time.

6/16/09 - Last day of tec
6/22/09 - Last day of school

My friends are crazy

Girls are clinical.

Everything i say is wrong...

WHY DO........ Guys squeze the bill of baseball hat's till it's half cone shaped???

I let my friend cut my bangs and now they are one inch long

Warm Fuzzies

"And you already know
Yet you already know
How this will end"

How it Ends- DeVotchka



I love being a wittness because [Vol. 2]

I'm not scared of the future.








Thank you for loveing me Jehovah.

I think i'm going to throw up...

Listening to: The Appleseed Cast/ Sargamatha

Should be doing.....
Edditing and printing out the rest of the the graduation certifiicates that my class always makes (I had to eddit them last year too but it's not the worst live job I've ever had to do....)

Anyway we were waiting because we thought the printer was jammed.....turns out all we needed to do was hit the start button....(what does that say about my teachers teaching abbility..................)

It's not even 9:15 yet.......

&& move people are being such major bit....individuals.

'In school theye have loud bells that ring in regular intervals reminding you that time is passing even more slowly then it seems'


I can't wait for school to be out...In fact I'm even looking forward to next school year....

This one stank. (is that the correct past tence?)

I'm looking for a place to be. long.

I am now the proud owner of the 'playing for a change' CD-DVD set. Yay me.

I love my cat. People however.... people are a very different story

Update: i'm eating hapi snacks-nori maki

Curse this blasted procrastination of mine!

Myname is sanyo phillips

Start spreading the news. I'm leaving today. I want to be a part of it. New york new york.

Over all i had a fun time last night in nyc. I don't even care about the cat pee smell. i love the city.

Ok. I'm having a hard time handling...well everything. Please everyone, i just want to be left alone for a while

I just did a smart thing. (I think...)

Look up kenya's banga music or the band extra golden when you get a chace it's terry interesting music.

n't captivate me so maybe that shouldn't count?

I've read around 100 books (at least) since I started working at the library in nov 08. i think that's quite a feat. I speed read some though if they did

[mrs.robinson, you are trying to seduce me]

[Explode-i-fy] No one respects 17 yearolds

Confuzzzed

Bowl of oranges- A Beautiful song by th e talented artist 'Bright Eyes'

The rain, it started tapping on the window near my bed.
There was a loophole in my dreaming,so I got out of it.
And to my surprise my eyes were wide and already open.
Just my nightstand and my dresser where those nightmares had just been.
So I dressed myself and left then, out into the gray streets.But everything seemed different and completely new to me.
The sky, the trees, houses, buildings, even my own body.
And each person I encountered, I couldn't wait to meet.I came upon a doctor who appeared in quite poor health.
I said "{I am terribly sorry but} there is nothing I can do for you{that} you can't do for yourself.
"He said "Oh yes you can. Just hold my hand.
I think that would help.
"So I sat with him a while and then I asked him how he felt.He said, "I think I'm cured.
No, in fact, I'm sure.Thank you Stranger, for your therapeutic smile.
"So that is how I learned the lesson that everyone is alone.
And your eyes must do some raining if you are ever going to grow.
But when crying don't help and you can't compose yourself.
It is best to compose a poem, an honest verse of longing or simple song of hope.
That is why I'm singing...Baby don't worry cause now I got your back.
And every time you feel like crying,I'm gonna try and make you laugh.
And if I can't, if it just hurts too bad,then we will wait for it to pass and I will keep you company through those days so long and black.
And we'll keep working on the problem we know we'll never solve Of Love's uneven remainders, our lives are fractions of a whole.
But if the world could remain within a frame like a painting on a wall.
Then I think we would see the beauty.
Then we would stand staring in awe at our still lives posed like a bowl of oranges,like a story told by the fault lines and the soil.

[Note: words in {} are not actually sung]

a wast of time

This is better then facebook.... Well opt things are, but no one bothers to notice cause facebook is popular so people seem to ignore the fact that it's

I'm updating my blog from my phone... Cool. :)

Starving.

I'm sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
hungry.

]SeaBear[

My nerves are so fried I feel like throwing-up.


SeaBear is a awesome band, cartel however, is a band of tone def chumps.

I'm sure they are nice boys, and the beats are ok, but the key of his voice when he's singing; never mathches the beat song, and they lyrics don't suck (too much) but their musical 'art' is jumbled and distastful the gravel in pudding.


Gross.

Making fun of others to make me feel better- Pt.1

Today's Victim: Bubba Sparxx & his song, 'miss new booty'.



In the one verse the singer says "all type of flashes, cashesgot these hoes shaking that molasses"
Molasses doesn't shake. Idiots.
While the one singing at that time is not bubba sparxx, Bubba IS the one who let thoes retared lyrics slide by.

I realise that I shouldn't say this because Jehovah loves me so who am I to say that what he loves is stupid.

By a blog is for feelings so here goes.

I don't like myself today.




Hopelessly, Sylvia

:] First Honors is today. (muffins, yay!)

Haha, I only strive for first honors for the blueberry muffins we can gourge ourselvs on at the ceremony.


Also, PLACEBO IS RELEASING A NEW ALBUM ON 8.16.09 YAY!!!!

Things ordered that should be mentioned:
Ipod (eeeeeeeee)
Rebound Bible reasoning book combo (YAY!)
Book for mommy.
Skin for my Ipod.




Harley is kind of annyoing.


I think I am haveing a self actualizing week. (insider)

[♥]

I want to move to Japan.
Is that to much to ask for?

Ok nvm, I'll settle for texas.


Just need to save the $$$$...maybe in a couple decades I can afford it.

[Luck in the Sky With Diamonds]

I named my post after the picture ....I found it on photobucket && I think it's pretty sweet.

My mp3 player is broken.......I can't afford a new one.


Ugh..I'm so sad now.

Sic

Lyrics to A Little's Enough :
When all is said and doneWill we still feel pain inside?
Will the scars go away with night?Try to smile for the morning light
It's like the best dream to haveWhere every thing is not so bad
Every tear is so aloneLike God himself is coming home to say.

-Angels & Airwaves.

I'm so stressed out && tired of school.


Now I'm getting sick.....

Are you kidding me?

I almost made it all winter witout setting sick,...


Oh well....I'll just start chugging Vitamin D & C.

My week was kinda awful.

But there were perks.....there is always perks.

Art washes away from the soul, the dust of everyday life.
-Picaso-

I want a.....

Datsun 240Z - 1969.........

Stand Still, Look Pretty- The Wreckers

I want to paint my face
And pretend that I am someone else
Sometimes I get so fed up I don't even want to look at myself

But people have problems that are worse than mine
I don't want you to think I'm complaining all the time
And I hate the way you look at me
I have to say
I wish I could start over

[Chorus]
I am slowly falling apart
I wish you'd take a walk in my shoes for a start
You might think it's easy being me
You just stand still, look pretty

Sometimes I find myself shaking
In the middle of the night
And then it hits me and I can't Even believe this is my life

But people have problems that are worse than mine
I don't want you to think I'm complaining all the time
And I wish that everyone would go and shut their mouths
I'm not strong enough to deal with it[Chorus 2x]




Yes this is a countryish song, oh well.....

Texas was AWE-SOME.

That is all.